My Support Group Girls: Sarah’s Laughter and PAIL

Prior to our positive pregnancy test, I was attending the Sarah’s Laughter meetings every other week. Every new week brought on a new sense of peace for me. I would share our current situation, whether that was me waiting for a cycle, going back to work, or dealing with a negative pregnancy test. Whatever it…

Another Month of Trying: The Faint Second Line

After our first month of trying to conceive following the loss of our daughter came to an end, I felt so disappointed. I wanted so badly to be pregnant again and to experience those happy feeling that she had provided for me. I knew no other baby would replace her, but I also knew how…

The Waiting Game: A Big Fat Negative

  For the next few months, we were stuck in the waiting game. I understand that for some parents that lose a pregnancy as late as we did or even one that is earlier, they need more time. For us, it was something we knew immediately! We wanted to be pregnant ASAP! We had to…

Postpartum Blues: Empty Arms, Quiet Home

After having a baby, your hormones do all sorts of crazy things that make you feel, for lack of a better word – crazy. Most new moms struggle a little bit with the new needs at home of adding a baby and these crazy hormones don’t help much. We were in a position where my…

Our Angel’s Birthday: Sawyer Grace Wilkins

It was February 28th, 2015, around two o’clock in the morning and it was nearly delivery time. Dr. Gautreau, along with my best friend, Emilee (the labor and delivery nurse who was actually off), my nurse, Margaret, my sister and Brandon were all working to help this delivery go smoothly. My sister was there, in…

Laboring and Loss: Strength in Prayer

Around 6pm on the same evening that we were told our sweet baby girl had gone to be with Jesus, I took my first dose of medication in attempt to start labor. Our family had arrived not long after we were settled in our L&D room. And some of our closest friends as well. Seeing…

Our Little Angel Baby: Sawyer Grace

As our pregnancy progressed with Sawyer, we fell more and more in love with her! We felt like we already knew her little personality from the kicks and rolls that she would respond with when we talked to her! Every single night, Brandon would lay his head on my belly and talk to her. It…