Sensitive Skin: Redirecting Negative Thoughts

Recently I have been battling have a bit of sensitive skin. Do you know what I’m talking about? When anything can hurt your feelings. From the smallest little comment to the way that someone simply looks at you. Sometimes, you just feel so bad for yourself and you get stuck in a pool of self-pity….

Honoring our Angel: Celebrating Her Impact on Us

When we lost Sawyer I knew there was more to her story than just us going through so much pain. I knew there had to be something bigger to her story. I was willing to wait for parts of that to unfold for us but I was always ready for God to show me anything…

Very, Very Farsighted: Hindsight is 20/20

Since 2014, I had looked forward to Christmas in our home with our baby. We lost Sawyer in February of 2015 and Christmas 2015 went without any children to celebrate with. We were, in fact, pregnant with Beau so that did help a little because we looked forward to the following Christmas with him. Then…

New Mom Fears: Is He Really Just Sleeping?

We had a great few days in the hospital. We were extremely grateful for an uneventful stay following delivery and were ready to go home and get settled! Our first night home was going well. Brandon had planned to return to work the next day so I had intended on tackling night duty alone. I’m…

A Newborn Cry: The Sweetest Sound

We were approaching 37 weeks and anxiously awaiting our little guy! My OBGYN and MFM doctor (high-risk MD) were willing to induce labor at this point! Brandon and I definitely agreed because we were getting more and more nervous as the days passed on. We just felt like we would feel better to have him…

Hurdling the Fears of the 32 Week Mark: God Pulled Us Through

We were cruising along in our pregnancy with Beau and things were going well. He was an active baby and this was so reassuring for me. I was obsessed with feeling his kicks and videoing my belly move. I didn’t let one opportunity to enjoy his pregnancy pass me by. With that said, I still…

Our Rainbow Baby: Little Dude Beau

As our pregnancy progressed I had moments of excitement, nervousness, fear, anxiety, and joy. It was an up and down process, to say the least. As I mentioned in my last blog, I would just pray in the moments of fear and anxiety and trust that God would provide for us. I had also mentioned…

My Support Group Girls: Sarah’s Laughter and PAIL

Prior to our positive pregnancy test, I was attending the Sarah’s Laughter meetings every other week. Every new week brought on a new sense of peace for me. I would share our current situation, whether that was me waiting for a cycle, going back to work, or dealing with a negative pregnancy test. Whatever it…

Another Month of Trying: The Faint Second Line

After our first month of trying to conceive following the loss of our daughter came to an end, I felt so disappointed. I wanted so badly to be pregnant again and to experience those happy feeling that she had provided for me. I knew no other baby would replace her, but I also knew how…