Most people have heard the story of Job and know about the significant losses he experienced in his life and how God blessed him following that. I feel like our story has a similar outcome. While at church this past Sunday, our pastor spoke about this story and explained how much Job lost and how…
Author: godsplanunraveling
My name is Jordyn and I have decided to share our story of pregnancy loss and life after loss, including our walk through pregnancy after loss and raising children after loss. Also, as of the past few years I talk a lot about Demi, our daughter, through her journey with toxoplasmosis. I think every aspect of our journey is a testimate to God’s plan for us. I hope you enjoy the blog!!
Footprints on our Hearts: Wings in Heaven
Sawyer Grace Wilkins 2/28/2015 I always said I never wanted one event in my life to define who I was as a person. I even said that after I lost our daughter. I didn’t want to be known as a bitter old lady who once lost a baby. I knew that there was always a…
Mother’s Day: When You are Mommy but Your Baby is in Heaven
My first Mother’s Day was only a few short months after I became a mom. That day was a bit different than I had dreamed it would be to say the very least. I had always dreamt of what it would be like to hold my baby and kiss her and love on her on…
Sensitive Skin: Redirecting Negative Thoughts
Recently I have been battling have a bit of sensitive skin. Do you know what I’m talking about? When anything can hurt your feelings. From the smallest little comment to the way that someone simply looks at you. Sometimes, you just feel so bad for yourself and you get stuck in a pool of self-pity….
What to say to someone who has lost a baby? The good, the bad and the down right dumb.
I have always struggled with what to say to people when they have lost someone. It was always uncomfortable to me to try to please them. I felt like whatever I would rehearse and plan to say would just fall short and come out like word vomit all over that person’s feet. That’s a horrible…
Honoring our Angel: Celebrating Her Impact on Us
When we lost Sawyer I knew there was more to her story than just us going through so much pain. I knew there had to be something bigger to her story. I was willing to wait for parts of that to unfold for us but I was always ready for God to show me anything…
Very, Very Farsighted: Hindsight is 20/20
Since 2014, I had looked forward to Christmas in our home with our baby. We lost Sawyer in February of 2015 and Christmas 2015 went without any children to celebrate with. We were, in fact, pregnant with Beau so that did help a little because we looked forward to the following Christmas with him. Then…
Surviving Struggles in Marriage: More Than Keeping Your Head Above the Water
We were really getting into the swing of things with this whole parenting thing! Beau was doing very well nursing and sleeping! Brandon and I were enjoying everything so much! We had worked so hard on his sleeping and we were finally feeling rested! He had Beau sleeping through the night by 16 weeks. From…
New Mom Fears: Is He Really Just Sleeping?
We had a great few days in the hospital. We were extremely grateful for an uneventful stay following delivery and were ready to go home and get settled! Our first night home was going well. Brandon had planned to return to work the next day so I had intended on tackling night duty alone. I’m…
A Newborn Cry: The Sweetest Sound
We were approaching 37 weeks and anxiously awaiting our little guy! My OBGYN and MFM doctor (high-risk MD) were willing to induce labor at this point! Brandon and I definitely agreed because we were getting more and more nervous as the days passed on. We just felt like we would feel better to have him…
God’s Plan Unraveling 