Every parent knows the sound of that joyous cry and that feeling when they lay eyes on their first born child. What every parent doesn’t know is the painful silence of the birth of a baby whose soul has already entered the gates of heaven. This silence is filled with a feeling of finality that is hard to explain. You can feel that last hope slipping away. The hope that maybe the doctors were wrong maybe, just maybe your baby is alive and well.

Death does seem to feel so final, but death is not final. As a Christian, I believe that there is an eternal life in heaven, and there will be a day that I will meet her again.

I often imagine her sitting on my dad’s lap and getting all of his love and cuddles and I have referred to this many times. This brings me such joy. When we meet again….

Today is a day my whole family looks forward to! We have created some fun traditions to bring joy to Sawyer’s birthday. We made her birthday cake and it was delicious and we changed her flowers with everyone picking their own flower or two to add in!

We had a wonderful afternoon and I’m so very happy we started this before Beau and Demi were born! Happy 9th Birthday Sawyer Grace! Our angel baby! The baby that made Brandon and I mommy and daddy!